I had an ugly argument with my husband via text. He was at work and I was home. I told him that I will no longer tell him how I feel because it makes our situation worse. Ironically people say, the truth will set you free. Not in my situation, the truth hurt him and he was not capable of digesting my feelings.
I had asked him many times that I want to file divorce and he would just ignore me. He thought I was going through a phase and that I would change my mind. It took me almost two years to make this decision, he didn’t want to accept my request.
I lived with many step dad’s so I wanted to keep a healthy relationship with him because I wanted him to be around his kids. Now, I see why Angelina and Brad Pitt had to end their relationship so ugly. Sometimes you must just pull the trigger because it’s unhealthy for the kids to be in this type of toxis environment.
About a half an hour later, I get a call from him that he doesn’t feel well. I ignored him because I was mad. I call this behavior a “tantrum”. He wants my attention any way he can get it and I had enough. An hour later, I begin to receive phone calls from weird numbers. I do not answer my phone anymore because we were getting bombarded with collection calls.
I finally get a text from his phone saying that they are trying to reach me because my husband had a medical emergency. I called back and the coworker answers and explains that my husband was having difficulty breathing and they had to call 911. I sounded cold, I knew this was not a real emergency, he gave himself an anxiety attack because I was ignoring him. I told coworker that I will meet him in the hospital.
On my way there, I couldn’t believe what he had done. I felt no empathy for him, I knew for a fact that he wasn’t having a heart attack but again I had to keep my emotions inside to avoid this situation from getting worse. I needed to show support and just be there with him. This is a very difficult day for me because I needed to fake it in order to make it. I realized that words are so powerful that they can hurt someone so much that they break down physically. Lesson learned, don’t be too honest in life because some people are not capable of handling the truth.
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